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Why why why? Why in the world am I underage? Why did I change from a levels? Why did I choose to go overseas? I am the worst at making decisions and I regret making the stupidest decisions ever. If it weren't for my decisions, I wouldn't be stuck where I am now. It's only the 18th day but this is probably the worst that this year can ever get for me. I hate how stupidly useless and irresponsible I am. I don't even know where to begin and where I am to go or what I'm going to do now. This is pointless and indescribable. Deep shit would be all the way at the bottom. Fucked up would just be mere average. The dictionary would need a brand new word for what I'm going through right now.